Why is it that some people make good decisions consistently while others seem to make them in cycles of good and bad? For example, I tend to drink like a fish during hard times. It's a cheap fix that only temporarily drowns out the problem. Lately, I've been doing it because of the little time I've had to myself after work and because I couldn't stand someone that I had to deal with at work every day. Re-read that last line how stupid does that sound. Why would anyone poison themselves as an escape to a problem? This is where my aha moment happened. To carry the misery of someone else home and to punish yourself for it is a surefire way to hate your job and to ultimately hate yourself. I've already done enough of that because I blamed my lack of success in photography on my lack of skills which is bullshit. All of this negativity is finally starting to change because I finally understand that it takes many good decisions made daily to be successful and happy in your own life. Yeah, I know painfully obvious but when your in the heat of something shitty it's easy to make bad decisions on how to handle it. That's why good decisions are difficult to make, there is always an easier and worse decision sitting right next to the good one. Think about it if you have two choices, fun with friends, or exercise and getting ahead in your work? Salad or a beer? I always find myself at the end of the deli line trying to justify that sandwich I'm about to buy. My head says you know you need a salad but come on you're so hungry, you haven't eaten all day, you gotta live a little. Or I know I shouldn't drink but I had such a bad day at work. Same with working out while I'm traveling it never fucking happens. Why the fuck not? I have always felt like shit after these moments and it makes so much sense to me. Bad reactions to shit situations bring your face right down into the shit. Being proactive though rises you above the shit and when with each good decision you build momentum. Unfortunately with good decisions, we face more resistance than we face with bad decisions. What I've learned from all this is that I need a better work-life balance and that I cannot let unfavorable situations destroy the proactivity in my life. The way I’m taking action on this is by making a list in my journal every day of everything I eat, any exercise I do daily, and other good and or bad decisions I have made throughout the day. The intent is to become conscious of my actions and their triggers in hopes of recognizing those causes so that I can prevent undesired actions.
Why not make good decisions today? What will you gain from this decision? What will you ultimately lose from the bad choices?
