Today is jam-packed.
I started this morning off at Renzo Gracie Academy on the west side of midtown to film some MMA (mixed martial arts) sparring. Now I’m on lunch and then off to my second photoshoot for the day.
I’ve been having some really profound realizations in my life lately because things have been really difficult.
I’ve been waiting to start a new job for over a month and change now. I was supposed to start on the second of January so I let a bunch of my assisting jobs go and then this job got delayed which killed me money wise.
What it did do though was give me more time to focus on my own work.
I had a good 2 weeks where I was miserable waiting and then I realized “Fuck that I don’t wait for anyone.” and I started making things and this sent my spirits through the roof.
I also realized…and this one’s embarrassing, that bad choices only make bad situations worse.
I know I know this is obvious but in the heat of the moment, it’s easy to get sucked into feeling angry especially when you have good intentions and have been working hard for years to grow consistently in your craft. It gets very frustrating to still be struggling but this has made my stomach practically made of steel when it comes to uncertainty. With all this struggle there are good characteristics being forged daily and the same diligence I have put into working on my craft is now being put into my character.
Now I am aware more than ever that you have to put your own oxygen mask first.