I woke up at 4:30am after I had a strange dream this morning.
Someone came to me an asked me if I wanted to know a secret about my partner. (Meg)
I hesitated and after a few seconds and replied no.
The person offering me the secret then went up in smoke and I suddenly woke up.
I opened my eyes to see it was still dark out.
Meg was sleeping beside me radiating heat onto my cold body.
Her warmth welcomed me.
I realized that in my lucid dream I finally had the gusto to say no and not follow that negative train of thought down a wormhole.
The person that came to me in that dream wasn’t a stranger it was my own insecurity.
It felt like a small victory against all of the overthinking I’ve done in the past two years.
Mainly over my career and other things as I don’t ever have to questions Meg’s love for me or mine for her.

I got up after my dream and sat with these thoughts on the roof for a little bit to let them sink in.

Overthinking, over planning is a form of insecurity and at some point, you have to tell yourself to shut up.
You have to say no to your brain and tell it you are going to get things done whether people like them or not.

Once you are done with your goals then you can critique them and if it didn’t come out how you wanted it on the first go then do it again.

Don’t let insecurity stop you in your pursuit of happiness.